Who Am I?

I am Jermaine Martinez.  I have a Ph.D. in Communication from the University of Illinois.  I’ve published on happiness, suicide, and my dissertation was on depression.

I am a personal development coach with the Attraction Institute & Lifeoperatingsystem.com.

My journey began 5 years ago when I fell into a dark deep depression at age 35. Another relationship had fallen apart and I began to worry that I had missed my chance at ever meeting the woman of my dreams.

I was afraid to go out and meet people.  I just settled for whatever relationship and friends came my way.  I rarely challenged myself in any area of my life.  I felt powerless, disconnected, and just wanted to spend my days sleeping so I wouldn’t have to deal with it all.

I felt insignificant.  I felt weak.  I felt like I had no way out of the fact that I was getting older and I still had not learned how to handle my life.  I was lost.  I was empty.

I would beat myself up daily through negative and suicidal self-talk.  Until one day, I beat myself up physically.  I punched a wall in pain and frustration and broke my hand.  That’s when I knew that if I did not make some changes I’d die…

Today Things Are Much Different

Since I was in High School I had always felt like I was destined to be important, popular, significant.  I felt like I was destined to live a rock star life.  But as I turned 35 and my relationships were falling apart around me, the realization, the mid-life crisis moment, revealed to me that I talk a bigger game than I actually lived, and I rarely created anything of meaningful value in my relationships, work, or friendships.

As I worked with the great coach Leigh Louey-Gung at Lifeoperatingsystem.com I developed my own pathway to mastering my life through the mastery of my “inner game.”

In other words, I discovered and have mastered how to be my own inner self-care coach of sorts.

I learned how to not only be more openly expressive and free in relationships, but also how to experience connection with people more generally and experience empowerment in all areas of my life.

Since learning how to work any issues and barriers I might face dealing with family, friends, women, or just my own free time, I no longer experience my life in deep, dark, and depressing ways.

I no longer feel like my life is not in my control.

I no longer allow fear, uncertainty, or anxiety stop me from doing what I want.

I have learned how to recognize the best actions for me to take in any moment of challenge or pain I might face.

I have developed the courage to take those actions and the wisdom to know when to accept that there is nothing I can do.

I’m a person who has been where many people who crave more and feel frustrated about how to achieve it are.

I’m a guy whose life for over 15 years tended to lapse into sadness and self-loathing, LITERALLY 15 YEARS of feeling sad, lonely, frustrated, over the fact that he felt so alone and powerless to change anything who has developed a lifestyle where I experience more connection, power, freedom, gratitude, and certainty about the challenges I continue to face to this day.

I have not experienced long-lasting debilitating sadness, powerlessness, frustration in over 6 years.

Today I am looking to teach and coach others who crave more for themselves, their relationships, their work and free time discover their own inner independence self-care coach so that they too can make serious and lasting changes to their lives.